move it

this is

one

spot

you

are

not

allowed

this

is

the

time

the

time

is

now

cannot

say

cannot

make

a

change

if

you

don't

like

it

re-arrange

brain

stops

working

if

you

don't

turn

the

wheels

oh

man

look

what

happened

forgot

what's

real

tic

toc

tic

toc

ferris wheel...

Experience. Freedom. Love. Now.

Random Meaningful Words Meaningless, I Think Not...

Future Food
Rescue
Maybe You
Sometimes Too
After You
One Other
Not The Same
You
Question Me
Explore Me
I Implore Thee
Free
Finally
Us
Love, Love, Love
La, La, La
Today
Now
Beauty
Pureness Of Self



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Crohn's Sucks

Grasp the sides of my sink
Close my eyes,
And with the breath of my being
Comes the tears.
As they fall down the drain
I lean in and
Loom at the watery
baby blues...

When will this end???
I simply, have had enough.
I say aloud "I'm fine."
Trying to convince myself that
tomorrow the medicine will work
Tomorrow, I'll be all better, not bitter
And laugh with a full smile
Without fear and the
Secret sadness I carry in my heart.
Tomorrow I won't feel any pain
And forget for just a second
that I should be feeling better by now.
Tomorrow, I will feel like myself again.

Another deep breath and
I can literally taste the hope
filling my lungs.
It's going to be OK.
It has to...




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Retrospective Desire

Felt the breeze blow
Turned my head to look back
I swear I saw you, I swear.

You were giving me that deep stare
Eyes almost golden
and scented with Jameson.
For just a moment,
I felt that connection
we used to share.
Deep like the red painted walls
Cracked like the molding
Beautiful imperfection...
Taunting you from across the room
The draw, the passion
The burning desire
Between thighs and dark colored sheets.
Raw and unrequited
Beautiful estrangement.
Keep walking forward...

It wasn't you.



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magic

I keep getting a picture in my
mind of a rug being rattled
and dust floating magically
into the air.
Slow motion...
Almost dream-like.

Inside that dust, stories, laughter and secrets lye.

Without knowing it, I guess
I've been investigating...

When the memory fails you...

Sometimes you can hear a
child crying in the basement.
Or maybe, It's just the dust
telling stories of all the
backsides blackened
and blue eyes reddened?

This dust is funny, I swear it.
It blows about all through the house now.
It's giving sickness to younger generations.

Why?

Allergies, a reaction to the environment.
The pain in the dust is spreading...

It makes some remember
others forced to forget.
A more cynical person might say
You get what you deserve.
But who decides?
It doesn't land evenly or equally.
After all, nothing about it said fair.
It's dirty and can blind the eyes
Muffle the senses
and put a blanket on the soul.
It clogs and restricts the heart.

When the memory fails you...

There are secrets roaming
and floating around this house.
Not everyone wants to know,
and some,
have no choice to forget...



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Blue Light

The sun shines on my spirit.
I am guided.
Reminded to have faith
I have found freedom
You remind me of the good.
I see it in your eyes
The way you look at me,
it's better than before
It's better than ever.

The beach at twilight
The blue glow of the sky
Reflecting off the slow moving waves
I found love.
As we experience our lives together
The sun shines on my spirit.



Experience. Freedom. Love. Now.

no title

I create
that's what I do
I divulge onto paper
rehash the rage
I create
breath
mindfulness
must remember
I can create
that's what makes me tick
turns my clock
Kinda wish this would stop
then I remember,
I create
my space
resonate
look around
and draw it in
I create
self made.



Experience. Freedom. Love. Now.