perspective

when it comes
it never plays out like you planned
disappointment
seems like a blow to who you are
seems like maybe you could have done it differently.
BUT
have faith my friend
behind that darkening light
is opportunity
A new path
one that would have been missed
had things stayed the same.
Recognize change
as the way things are supposed to be.
You are because I am.
I am because I live with open eyes.
I live with an open heart
and I welcome the darkness
because I know without it
there could be no light.



Experience. Freedom. Love. Now.

Ryan

Dreamt I swam through murky
water and made friends
with a wide-mouthed fish
He had a brilliant smile
Made my eyes twinkle.




Experience. Freedom. Love. Now.

new phase

i guess sometimes it's easy to lose faith
my face
looks unfamiliar
eyes crossed and possibly
changing colors
try to
re-discover
my center.
down below
underneath
all this freakin mess
sick of all this rest
wanna run around
and break a sweat
see how to get
from here to there
without all the meds
call the feds
the crohny needs arrested



Experience. Freedom. Love. Now.

move it

this is

one

spot

you

are

not

allowed

this

is

the

time

the

time

is

now

cannot

say

cannot

make

a

change

if

you

don't

like

it

re-arrange

brain

stops

working

if

you

don't

turn

the

wheels

oh

man

look

what

happened

forgot

what's

real

tic

toc

tic

toc

ferris wheel...

Experience. Freedom. Love. Now.

Random Meaningful Words Meaningless, I Think Not...

Future Food
Rescue
Maybe You
Sometimes Too
After You
One Other
Not The Same
You
Question Me
Explore Me
I Implore Thee
Free
Finally
Us
Love, Love, Love
La, La, La
Today
Now
Beauty
Pureness Of Self



Experience. Freedom. Love. Now.

Crohn's Sucks

Grasp the sides of my sink
Close my eyes,
And with the breath of my being
Comes the tears.
As they fall down the drain
I lean in and
Loom at the watery
baby blues...

When will this end???
I simply, have had enough.
I say aloud "I'm fine."
Trying to convince myself that
tomorrow the medicine will work
Tomorrow, I'll be all better, not bitter
And laugh with a full smile
Without fear and the
Secret sadness I carry in my heart.
Tomorrow I won't feel any pain
And forget for just a second
that I should be feeling better by now.
Tomorrow, I will feel like myself again.

Another deep breath and
I can literally taste the hope
filling my lungs.
It's going to be OK.
It has to...




Experience. Freedom. Love. Now.

Retrospective Desire

Felt the breeze blow
Turned my head to look back
I swear I saw you, I swear.

You were giving me that deep stare
Eyes almost golden
and scented with Jameson.
For just a moment,
I felt that connection
we used to share.
Deep like the red painted walls
Cracked like the molding
Beautiful imperfection...
Taunting you from across the room
The draw, the passion
The burning desire
Between thighs and dark colored sheets.
Raw and unrequited
Beautiful estrangement.
Keep walking forward...

It wasn't you.



Experience. Freedom. Love. Now.